Marc Anthony - Flor Pálida

HA-ASH - Lo Aprendí de Ti

That first kiss can teach us so many things.

love, compassion and even how to forget. To all the great teachers of the world, thank you.

Letters Unsent.

For a time now I have been asking myself, what should I do with all the letters I did not sent?
Who gets to hear the things that I never said to you?
Your letters will continue without a postmark date and things
will continue unsaid.

So today I woke up excited about life, I'm feeling like the old me and I'm starting to believe that the light is shine bright at the end of the tunnel, it's really the most unexpected things that make you feel alive again, what a great day to start the day; just really thankful for all the great new people that are part of my life.

To go or Not to go

When is it ok to declare your self mentally unstable? or is it best to just sit and wait for a complete stranger with a degree to tell me I'm insane?

A story about a pole, Hershey squirts and a three hour tour

So no shit their I was in the commissary buying a birthday cake for my soldiers birthday when I get a text message that says " SGT I've been trying to reach you! We just hit a pole! While drive down this slippery hill" like all good NCO the first thing I ask is " are you ok any one hurt?" No thank God all is well and no human injuries have occurred but by the way I did not mention earlier that she was driving my Denali that she should have returned to me at least five days prior but I was not in any rush to pick it up we really only needed on car that week do to all the early days and holidays but back to my truck so now I have a truck that has a driver side door that's completely sealed shut no way to open it unless it's with the jaws of life and a $500 deductable to get all damages repaired, uuh the life of an NCO.

Happy New Years where all the post on FACEBOOK and that was awesome but for me it was more like why do I have the Hershey squirts??! WTF did I eat nothing is staying in it's either coming out of my mouth or my ass and the worst thing neither way for it to exit is a good way because last night I was chowing down on some extra hot chips and salsa while watching a movie with my husband the pain was so bad I had to eat ice cream to clam the burning in my through and clean my booty hole with lotion to help with the pain of a raw booty hole.

Hubby and I said let's go to Ramstein and have some dinner with our kids and do some shopping well with the snow and rain our three hour drive has turned into the five hour road trip from hell, Clarissa my 14 year old teenage daughter is bitchy asking every ten minutes how much longer Andrew my 12 year old has been gassy the entire trip causing us to scream and open the windows for the relief of fresh air and my poor baby boy Jon he's my 19 year old giant that had been declared mentally retareded at the age of five with an intellectual capacity of a three year old sits on the back sit patiently awaiting the reward of a fantastic meal at the end of this trip.

When is it really over?

Twenty-two years of your life, twenty-two years of unconditional love and support and out of nowhere your dearly be love it says" thank you for all the good and the bad but I'm throwing in the towel!! " WTF ? is the only question that is screaming in your head, what do you? do you fight for what is yours or do you just let go? Who knows the right answer ?! for every individual there is a different choice and many have end-less amount of paths they can choose from, but as for me I stayed and I am going to fight until I can't fight no more.

I know I deserve to be loved and to be wanted,  I deserve a smile when I walk in the door and not just a simple "hey your home" every women needs to hear every now and then that they look beautiful all women have the right to be loved and desired, I just ask for the opportunity to have what I used to have the opportunity to be loved and to receive kisses that are full of passion and not full of pity which is what I have been getting lately.

Children are amazing they are resilient and they adapt to everything I want to be like a child I want to bounce back from this and adapt to my new life of a loveless marriage and empty hugs and kisses. I hope that one day I will be loved again until then I made this choice now I have to live with it.